For decades, I lived in chronic, deep depression. I had no idea why I was there, or how to get out from under the black cloud. So I did what a lot of people in that situation do: I self-medicated with drugs to numb the pain. Then, one day when I was twenty-eight years old,…
We live in a hyper-materialistic world, one that directs our consciousness to focus on the outer at the expense of the inner. But if life happens from the inside out, this basically hijacks our internal navigation system and replaces it with mindless conformity to a uniform reality. Anyone who steps outside of this reality is…
I can’t say when my anxiety turned into depression, but with hindsight and many years of therapy I know that it goes as far back as I can remember. Long-term anxiety, like the type I lived through as a child, eventually morphs into depression, as feelings of hopelessness and helplessness take over the psyche. Depression…
I don’t recall the exact age I suffered my first panic attack, but I do remember how it felt. As my chest tightened and my breathing became shallow, my oxygen level dropped, and I thought I was going to die. Breathing is fundamental to life, and when it gets restricted, for whatever reason, we fear…
In 1992 I began what became a two-year process of letting go of street drugs so I could spend more time with my new-found love, climbing. When I give presentations, I inevitably get asked the same question: “Didn’t you just trade in one addiction for another?” And I always give the same answer: Yes, and…
One minute it’s a pandemic of the unvaccinated, and the next thing you know the vaccinated are variant super-spreaders who are responsible for ushering in end times. One person accuses the other of stockpiling livestock medicine, while that other believes we’re all being secretly fed self-spreading vaccines via Mexican tomatoes. As ludicrous as some of…
Thoughts are choices, and they have power. They collect in the psychic atmosphere forming clouds that explode into the theatre of events once they have gained enough momentum. Most people are unconscious of how to wield this creative force, believing instead that they are passive witnesses to events happening outside of, and unrelated to, them.…
When All That Glitters was originally released on May 11 2011, mental health and trauma were topics that weren’t openly discussed in the mountain community, or any community for that matter. Although the colourful stories from my past were revelatory to the people who thought they knew me as a fit mountain athlete, the mental…
As World War II came to an end, Nazi psychiatrists interviewed families to see if there was a difference between those who had sent their children to the safety of the countryside to live with relatives, and those who kept their children with them in the cities as bombs dropped around them. What they found…
I never really had female role models growing up. All I remember is seeing those impossibly skinny and perfect models on the cover of magazines, the same magazines you see at the grocery checkout to this day, as a matter of fact. The only models I could even remotely relate to were the ones with…